Depression Did NOT Win.
So about a week ago I got some news that would push back my plan almost a full year. I was told that I would not be graduating in 2019. At first, I handled it pretty well, but then it didn’t really hit me until I realized that it meant that I would be put through two more semesters of stress. I had really prayed hard on this entire situation and I didn’t understand why God chose me to fight this battle…
Fast forward, I fall into some deep depression. I couldn’t even bring myself to get out bed or eat. I had never in my life felt so lazy. My room had got dirty, like I had clothes and paper EVERYWHERE. I still had not unpacked my suitcase from over the weekend. So basically, I couldn’t walk anywhere in my room which added on to my depression. I prayed about it, talked to my friends, and I just kept thinking to myself “how do I get myself out of this funk?” … I knew what I had to do, I just didn’t have the energy or motivation.
It wasn’t until 1:30 in the morning that I decided to get my behind up and be productive. I cut on some blues and soul music and just cleaned up like it was nothing. It was the weirdest thing, but I’m glad I experienced this to figure out how to cope with depression.
This made me realize how important is to keep, what I call, a mental health healing diary. My mental health healing diary consists of journaling my thoughts, my triggers, bible scriptures, how I coped during that time, what worked for me and what didn’t.
From now on, when I have a “flare up” (idk if that’s the right term lol), I’ve vowed to jot down my experience and how I coped with it. This is my reference guide so that I don’t experience what I did this past week.
Mental health is the most important health because it can affect how your body functions, relationships, and the list goes on. It’s okay to not be okay, but don’t let that stop you from being the best you.
Let this be a reminder to always make sure your mental health is in check. If your mental isn’t in good health, your life will be knocked off balance.
God always has a plan fo you whether or not it’s the plan you set for yourself. You just have to trust him. If I would have graduated in 2019, my younger sister who is currently away at basic training would have not been able to make my graduation. I am convinced this is why God postponed my graduation plans. Sometimes God allows our plans to fall apart so that his can fall into place. Trust him.
Stay blessed. God got you.
Mental health hotlines:
SAMHSA’s National Helpline – 1-800-662-HELP (4357)